Normally I would still be in bed at this hour on a Saturday morning, just like my sister is. Haha. So the reason I woke up at 8 plus is a game of tennis with my brother. I think I managed to hold my own even though it's been years since I've played. There was the occassional bout of breathlessness, probably coz of the cough and flu I've been having the past few days but more likely due to my lack of stamina. Hehe.

Overall I'm glad I did play. My muscles will probably be aching tomorrow and I'll feel so tired due to the lack of sleep, but once again I recalled my love for the game. The thrill of hitting the tennis ball with all you've got, the swing of the racket as you prepare to hit and the follow through after, the "winning shot", the perfect placement of the tennis ball, the pespiration from running under the hot sun and nothing beats a good workout yeah, (on a more girly note) the lovely tennis skirts and dresses and pretty pink tennis balls! My brother bought the tennis balls when he was in the US and it's for a good cause so it's all good. ^^

Anyone wanna play? I need the practise so let me know yeah. Take care people and happy working out!

My brother's being fussy and doesn't want to go to Shangri-La's The Line. He wants to go back to Min Jiang, but my dad's not sure if they'll be open. Plus we had that for his birthday dinner so I think he wants to have something different. Well looks like we need to find a good restaurant that will be open on the first day of Chinese New Year for dinner. Any suggestions anyone? It doesn't necessarily need to be a Chinese restaurant. Just as long as the food is great! Hehe.

Just finished a glass of white wine and Toa Payoh's famous chicken rice (yummy yummy!) and I'm feeling nice and full, so let me get started. Looking back, 2007 went by in a flash. Well somehow a lot of it wasn't very pleasant, but there were the tiny moments of joy. Speaking of which, it's about time I posted all the long overdue photos from last year. Forgive my procrastination. Hehe.




Okay there should be more photos, but I'm waiting for my lovely babes to pass them over. So hang tight till then yeah. I haven't made up my mind as to whether 2007 was a good or bad year or maybe it was neither. Hmm... but it was definitely one of the years where I cried the most. Still, that might not necessarily make it a bad year. Well it's 2008 already and a friend asked what my new year's resolutions are and the thing is, I haven't really thought about it at all. Perhaps I was too caught up in everything to even remember. So let me think about it and post soon yeah. By the way, what are your resolutions? I have a feeling some of you have really interesting ones. I would love to know so please comment on my tagboard yeah. Take care my lovely darlings. Babes, clubbing soon! Hee~

My feet are killing me, my knees are aching and I feel so exhausted, but it doesn't matter coz I haven't had this much fun in a while.

Just reached home not too long ago. Clubbing at St James followed by supper at Jalan Kayu, hmm hmm... Thanks babes! You girls rock! Hehe.

Photos and updates coming up later after a nice long sleep. Nite nitez! Hee~
Happy Deepavali!

So I haven't been updating in a while. But it's time to get back on track. Just a little update on what's going on. I'm working again. Yes finally i know. This time it's at OCBC bank. The work can get a little monotonous at times, but the people are really nice and it helps to make the workplace more interesting. The funny thing is that I feel like I've finally found a job where I don't mind considering a long term commitment. Though it's not really my "perfect job", but it's definitely worth a try. I'll just have to see how it goes.

There were quite a few birthdays that went past, but the one I want to mention first is Elke's because I forgot to wish her. I'm so sorry babe! Here's a really belated happy birthday to you! By the way, I didn't have the chance to mention this to you at DXO, but I absolutely love your bf's hair! It's so cool! You two look really good together! Hehe.

Sujuan and Jacqui's birthdays went by too and despite the absolutely horrid service at the japanese restaurant, it was still a crazy night if I might say so. Hehe. It's been a while babes and it's Oon's birthday next. Yay! Speaking of which, you still owe me the photos from your 23rd birthday!!!

Not forgetting, there was Father's Day in June and we checked out The Club St. Brasserie. The caesar salad and desserts were nice, but I can't say much about the spaghetti. The pub area looked really cozy though, so you might want to check it out. For my sister's birthday, we went back to the same chinese place as my brother's birthday. Had some of the same stuff, but no quail! According to the waitress, the quails weren't "pretty" that day so she didn't recommend ordering that. Lols. Oh but it's so sad because the restaurant is closing down or actually I think might have already closed down by now! *sobz* Looks like we'll have to hunt for another nice chinese restaurant. ><

Ok enough about birthdays. So I haven't really been shopping much, unless you count the $500 worth of clothes, but that was in May! Then again I did add 3 pairs of shoes, 2 tokidoki bags, lots of stationery and who knows what other little knick knacks to my stash. Okok so I have been shopping, but I do want to get a new digital camera as well. Any suggestions?

Oh and to clarify, one of the tokidoki bags was a gift from a special someone. Speaking of which, I heard that a special someone is coming back to Singapore for a visit. Please please let me know when, if not I might be in the US when you're here. Unfortunately, I also heard that another special someone is going overseas. Sigh.

I'm just going to end here. Till next time. Sweet dreams!

Forgive me for going MIA over the past few months. Quite a number of things have happened; some of it good, but some are absolutely horrid and it all escalated at the beginning of March. Troubles of my own, letting go, finding out things being said behind my back, the fear of losing someone. I'm mentally, emotionally exhausted and seriously in need of a vacation, a getaway from all this nonsense.

I feel really bad about hurting someone and I know that there's no way I can fully apologise for it. Please forgive me? Perhaps one day we'll be able to be friends again.

However, I do feel terribly hurt and disappointed as well. I don't wish to give a damn, but the truth is I do. Guess I trust people too easily and consider them friends when actually they're not. That's just me.




So right now, it is really going to take a lot for me to forgive all of them, especially the parties not involved. If you don't know the whole true story and just wish to make assumptions and spread malicious gossip, then shut the fuck up and fuck off.

At the same time, I do wish to thank the people that still talk to me and consider me a friend. You guys have helped to cheer me up many a time when I felt like crying. I'm really grateful to have you in my life.




Hopefully, I'll come out of this experience as a much better and stronger person.


Ben ben: I'll skype with you real soon yeah. You were saying 10pm New Zealand time, so 5pm Singapore time?

Faith Hill's song about the pain of needing to let go of something you want to lose the least, about how what's best for everyone isn't always easy.


i thought it was over, baby
we said our goodbyes
but I can't go a day
without your face
going through my mind

in fact, not a single minute
passes without you in it
your voice, your touch
memories of your love
are with me all of the time

let me let go, baby
let me let go
if this is for the best
why are you still in my heart
are you still in my soul
let me let go

How would you react if one day your mother told you that? Fortunately for me, I'm old enough to understand why she said that, but it definitely still hurts to hear such a line. I believe no child should ever have to go through such an experience.



I believe any arising problems should be settled between the couple and not blamed upon the children. They are the innocent parties here.

Having a child is taking a big step of responsibility. There's no such thing as turning back or regretting later. Just a little advice to the young couples out there, please be very sure of what you're about to do because it will change your lives forever.

Honestly, I would rather not post these photos as they remind me of something painful, but they are the most recent ones I have. So ben these are for you.

It's another new year and this time it's my year! Piggies ftw! Hehe~

We had our reunion dinner at Shangri-La, The Line, and I must say that it was so much better than last year's Ritz Carlton. It was good that my brother could join us for the full dinner this time and as usual both of us had lots of 'nonsense' conversations. After which we headed over to my aunt's place to 'bai nian' before she left for her China trip. Lunch on sunday at my grand aunt's place where I met my two new cousins! One's just one month old and the other's two months old. Both just as adorable!

Of course, big red packets from my dad and aunt and greatly appreciated. Hehe. I hope all of you had just as great a new year as I did!

My department decided to launch the new financial year by taking a Friday off work and enjoying some activities together. We had archery lessons in the morning, followed by spending the afternoon in Sentosa and finally dinner at Ritz Carlton.

Photos photos!




















Archery's a rather cool sport. I don't think that it's something I would like to pick up permanently but I'm glad that I had the chance to try it. Snowboarding's next! Hee~

oceans apart, day after day
and i slowly go insane
i hear your voice on the line
but it doesn't stop the pain
if i see you next to never
how can we say forever

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

pam.per
-verb

1. to treat or gratify with extreme or excessive indulgence, kindness, or care.
2. to cater excessively to someone or to his or her desires or feelings.


It's been a really long time since I've been pampered. So that's precisely what I've been doing over the past few weeks, getting/buying things I need. Hehe okok it's WANT!

1st. shopping spree at warehouse.
2nd. dyed and permed my hair.
3rd. bought new tops from zara, chaos and g2000.
4th. bought the black leather handbag i've been eyeing for ages.
5th. shopping spree at topshop.
6th. another shopping spree at warehouse.

Finally, "presents" that I really want. Yay!

My colleagues and I recently went for a karaoke session during lunch. If you know me well enough, it'll probably come as a shock to find out that I actually went to a ktv and sang mainly chinese songs! Don't worry, I'm still quite shocked about it myself.

It's not very clear, but just a little clip showing the fun we were having that afternoon. Don't kill me girls and guy! Hehe.

One so incredibly sweet, the sun seemed to shine constantly but when anger raged, he could make me feel like the smallest thing on this earth. One who stole my heart so completely, yet totally destroyed it by cheating on me. To this day, I doubt he realises just how deep an impact he made on my life. One who thought he knew it all, but I know the truth. One so gentlemanly, yet never quite able to understand me. One who tried to woo me back with flowers, but how could he ever hope to win my heart with something that fades away and dies. One who I thought so highly of, yet betrayed my trust. I thought we could still be friends, but I don't wish to talk to you ever again. Such a disappointment.

Like you said, whatever.
Fucking bastards.

My dad suddenly wanted to go out for dinner one night after my sis and I just got home from work. So we rushed out and went to one of our usual Chinese restaurants near Katong. It's no wonder I can't lose weight with all the dinners I've been having!

My dear jie suddenly asked if I wanted to go clubbing because she was on leave the whole week. Lucky girl! But anyways, I jumped at the chance to hang out with her, relax and forget about everything.

I love the ambience at Wine Bar. It's definitely a place I would recommend for chilling with friends. So we had a few drinks with her one for one credit card promotion before heading in to Zouk. Okok it was quite a lot of drinks! Hehe. I've missed Zouk's Lychee Martinis and Apple Shooters!








It's funny how the minute I stepped out of the cab, my jie started gushing about a few things. Firstly, about the cuteness of my attire. Secondly, about the way it was so utterly me and how it suited me really well. Thirdly, about my colour co-ordination. Hehe. Thanks babe, I enjoyed myself!

I pass by the Seletar Reservoir on my way to and from work. Looking out the window, admiring the scenery, enjoying the tranquility of the place. During the haze period, I couldn't help but wish that it was the San Francisco fog I was seeing...

[d]esiree
twentythree
6th oct 1983

+ addiction
-hand bags
-stiletto heels
-trench coats
-convertibles.slk350 roadster
-kobe beef
-godiva chocolate martinis
-cheesecakes.the cheesecake factory
-union square.san francisco



audrey babe. great kisser. muahz. Y


clubbing mates. much love. Y



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